Having taken a bird’s-eye view of Step Two as it applies to Paganism, I’d like to share how I have interpreted and applied Step Two in a way that merges my spiritual path with my path of recovery. Drawing a distinction between the two doesn’t really make sense to me, and for many a reason. Continue reading
The Waxing Phase
Much has happened since my post covering Mabon and the New Moon in Libra. At the time, I wrote about how I was confronted with my own insecurities surrounding poverty and unemployment which were being drawn out by Pluto’s stationing in Capricorn. I had been told at my temp job, which I thought had been going so well, that they were looking for another candidate for the permanent position that I had been holding down so diligently. Continue reading
Step Two: Came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
So, having admitted powerlessness over alcohol*, the only recourse we have left is to seek outside help. There is no explicit reference in this step to God, or even to a power conceived of as divine (since God is introduced in the next step, however, that may be a moot point…). The bottom line here is that alcoholics can’t get better all by themselves, but that if we put our trust in a power greater than ourselves, we can behave in a sane manner once again. If we could do it ourselves, there would be no need for the Twelve Steps—indeed, there would be no such thing as an alcoholic. I can’t tell you how many times I resolved to quit drinking and doing drugs, and I can tell you that I didn’t get very far on sheer willpower. The only way I’ve ever been able to stay sober over extended periods was to look outside of my own personal resources for help. Continue reading
Although I spent years learning about witchcraft when I was a teen, I had never paid much attention to the Wiccan sabbats and esbats—even they smacked too much of organized religion for my tastes. The Equinoxes and the Solstices were very important to me, but they were just that—Equinoxes and Solstices, not “Ostara” or “Yule.” I didn’t attach meaning to them drawn from cultural myths, but instead created my own symbol systems. When they came, I didn’t note their passing by way of ritual, either–though my inner world would always become a bustle of activity at those times, with synchronicities, spirit contact and initiatory experiences always ratcheting up as they passed. Continue reading
A few days have gone by since my post about Step One, and I am seeing that the presentation I gave was a bit one-sided. I don’t apologize for that, since this is a personal blog and a wholly fitting venue for me to share my ideas, even if they are only opinions. Still, I like to think critically and that is the purpose of this series on the 12 Steps. Continue reading
Step One: We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable.
Step One is a paradox for me. On one level, it is the simplest, least threatening and most self-evident of the steps, and on another level, it is terrifying and oppressive. I suspect this is true for many alcoholics and addicts. Continue reading
“If you are as seriously alcoholic as we were, we believe there is no middle-of-the-road solution. We were in a position where life was becoming impossible, and if we had passed into the region from which there is no return through human aid, we had but two alternatives: One was to go on to the bitter end, blotting out the consciousness of our intolerable situation as best we could; and the other, to accept spiritual help. This we did because we honestly wanted to, and were willing to make the effort.”
Excerpted from “Alcoholics Anonymous,” Chapter 2: “There Is A Solution.”
My name is Frater Vajra, and I am an alcoholic.* Continue reading